Tuesday, August 30, 2011

The Wonder of Life

Here I am at my aunt's house and I believe I have fallen in love with a little baby.

Have any of you looked at a baby and wished that you could have one. Well I experienced that the last couple of days. The babies name is Kylee and she is my second cousin, although I consider her my niece. The way she looks at you like you are the only thing she cares about and the look of utter trust in her eyes. Nothing can replicate it.

I mean, I recently got a boyfriend, but this is different. You get flutters in your stomach and it is because she is holding your finger with her little hands or even makes those cute little noises that mean absolutely nothing. How anyone can not like babies is beyond me. They are precious! <3

Iknow that babie sare a lot of work, but when you look at one and she looks right back at you with those big blue eyes there is nothing you can do but wish you had one of your own and fall in love. I guess I am being silly, because really, I am 17. I just finished school. But everyone has their dreams right. I want atleast 3 kids. Having one makes them spoiled. Two kids and they fight way too much with each other. Three or four is perfect, but I think five is pushing the limit.

I grew up with 5 brothers. Ya, that's right. Five. It kind of sucked sometimes when I just wanted to watch a chick flick or do something girly and they would all freak out at me. I always thought that God was punishing me for something. I mean, how can a girl grow up around so much testosterone. But I think I came out ok. Maybe having siblings isn't so bad.

Some people had a crappy family, and they survived. I didn't have it to bad and I am thankful every day that I can just be myself, and my family doesn't freak out at me. My prayers goes out to all those girls and boys out there that grew up in a situation different than mine, where they either didn't have a family, or had a terrible one. I am so sorry that you had to experience that at a young age. It isn't fair, but I think what we have to do is move on and discover that yes, not everyone went through that, but since you survived, that means you are strong and can persevere. Your troubles make you into the person you are today.

Little baby Kylee is growing up in a disfunctional family. My cousin and her boyfriend are living together, but don't have enough money for a house so they are staying at my aunt's. The dad is an alcoholic, but is trying to change. No one knows what is going to happen, especially when the mom is Christian and the dad isn't. I am not saying that he is a bad guy, it just causes a lot of arguments in the home.

So as I said, my prayers go out. Families are precious, and too often they aren't treated as such. I am so thankful for my brothers and my parents. They mean so much to me, so if you can, keep your family close.

In love
Not-So-Princess Lizzy <3

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Boys

I used to laugh with my friends. BOYS!! What did we need with them? I am pretty sure that is what all girls say when they are either frustrated with a guy or wishing they had a boyfriend. How do I know?? Cause I was a part of it all. No guy ever approached me wanting to take me on a date. Was it because I was too pretty or ugly, or they were scared about what I would say, or maybe they all thought I wasn't worth it. I don't know.

I probably never will know the truth, but I do know that boys bring way to many problems into a girls life. I mean this summer started out fine. I went to my grandparents to help out like any good granddaughter would do right?? Suddenly I start  texting this guy I met last christmas and he asks me to be his girlfriend. I felt too special to say no, but now I am stuck in a rut!

I mean. It was great. We really liked each other, we both believe in Christ, only there is a slight problem. When I go to school in a week and a half I will be 1000 km away. What am I supposed to do now?

I finally have my first kiss and now I am supposed to be apart from him till Christmas? In addition to all of this I don't want to hurt him. He is like no other guy. He treats me special and will give me a hug and hold my hand whenever possible. I thought that guys like this didn't exist!

I don't think I know myself because of everything my family has been through the last couple of years. I really have had to step in and be a parent a lot of the time, and because of that I haven't had the chance to discover who I am. Is having a long distance relationship the best thing for me right now? The only thing I can do right now is pray and maybe if someone looks at this give me some advice. I don't want to hurt him at all, but I don't think I have a choice.

My parents don't know because they would probably think I am crazy, but I am thinking that it might be best to talk to my mom. If anyone wants to stop me, I advise you to do it now.

Feeling not so princessy due to stress,

Lizzie

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

A Start

This is officially started. A Girl's Step Up. I have never thought of myself as a young lady, or even beautiful at times, only ever as a girl, and maybe a little cute. You may be wondering what this blog is about, but I don't know. It is just for those who feel like they can relate to me.

Let me explain. I am seventeen. Graduated. About to go to college and I don't feel like it is REAL!! It just all happened so fast. First I was this little girl nervous about kindergarden, then I was in grade three and worried about making new friends after we moved. Not far after that I was struggling through high school, trying to find myself amidst the peer pressure. I was just a normal girl, and suddenly I am pitted against the world and I am not ready to go.

So here goes nothing. Maybe no one will ever read my blog, or maybe I will have a million followers (big scoff). That does not mean anything. I will put out my advice and people and give me theirs of they want it. It doesn't matter, just hear what I will have to say in the coming months and days.

So for now this is Not-So Princess Lizzie signing off. I am searching and hoping that between you, Christ, and me we will be able to pull through and figure out who we are all supposed to be.